(Originally posted April 6, 2007)
. when exactly is the 'prime of life'? is it when you're in high school? is it early 20s? late 30s? this question haunts me sometimes. how will i know when i'm in the prime of life? what if i've already passed it? how long does it last? is it for one year? does it last a decade? what does it feel like? i wonder about this. i'm 23 years old. i've graduated university, gotten married, i have a job, i have a car, i have a condo, i buy groceries. is this the prime of life? i wake up most mornings with a feeling of dread and come home from work most days completely exhausted and frustrated. is this the prime of life? i'm supposed to be young and full of vigor - i've just come out of university so i should be brimming with ideas and passion. but i'm not. i count down every single minute until i get to go home, and then i spend the afternoon and evening waiting for the time when i can go to sleep to forget about how scared i am about work and how to deal with difficult students and is the toilet leaking or is it condensation and is the car locked and are the dishes done and is the car safe and what am i going to teach tomorrow.
. when exactly is the 'prime of life'? is it when you're in high school? is it early 20s? late 30s? this question haunts me sometimes. how will i know when i'm in the prime of life? what if i've already passed it? how long does it last? is it for one year? does it last a decade? what does it feel like? i wonder about this. i'm 23 years old. i've graduated university, gotten married, i have a job, i have a car, i have a condo, i buy groceries. is this the prime of life? i wake up most mornings with a feeling of dread and come home from work most days completely exhausted and frustrated. is this the prime of life? i'm supposed to be young and full of vigor - i've just come out of university so i should be brimming with ideas and passion. but i'm not. i count down every single minute until i get to go home, and then i spend the afternoon and evening waiting for the time when i can go to sleep to forget about how scared i am about work and how to deal with difficult students and is the toilet leaking or is it condensation and is the car locked and are the dishes done and is the car safe and what am i going to teach tomorrow.
according to answers.com, the prime of life is "the time of maturity when power and vigor are greatest"... which seems like a good definition. i'm just unsure of how you calculate that. i think it's pretty safe to say that this is not my prime. actually, by that definition, i probably won't hit my prime for at least another 5 or 6 years - maybe even 10. i think i can live with that... at least it takes some pressure off of me for now.
*phew*
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